Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Losing weight isn't always easy

Two friends have recently confided in me about their own weight-loss troubles, and it's been interesting. In both cases, I can see that their food addictions stem from emotional eating, and I can draw similarities to my own case. Food is absolutely a comfort thing for me. If I feel sad, angry, withdrawn, lost, unloved -- food calms me down. Nothing terrifies me more than not knowing where my next meal is coming from. Isn't it weird? You wouldn't think that people could be addicted to food like others can be addicted to cigarettes, alcohol, etc. -- whatever the vice, it can be scary. Makes one wonder what can be done to work on it. Really and truly, I suppose the three of us need counselling through it, one of my friends in particular. I'm actually planning to go back to my hypnotherapist to try hypnotherapy for weight-loss -- he's renowned world-wide for hypnotherapy, and I've had some great successes with him in regard to performance perfectionism anxiety.

I have been quite lazy with the Points Manager on the Weight Watchers website and as a consequence have more than likely been going over my points allowance for each day. I've been so busy (and away) lately that I find it such a HASSLE to have to update EVERYTHING I eat in a day -- which probably means that I'm eating too much, maybe! Geez, though. I'm trying to keep it updated currently, but yeah. Need more motivation to use it. I wish somebody else was doing WeightWatchers with me, but nobody is. My friends have pulled out of it. Too much money for them to justify not using it. (Fair enough.) You'd think, if I needed motivation and company, that I'd go along to the weekly weigh-in sessions but I don't have time. I do have friends who are doing it but they're not doing the online version. It's up to me to motivate myself but it's tricky.

Another thing that I've found that sucks about dieting is that it can be really hard to eat well when you're running really low on money. Hello, instant soup. And what bollocks is it that full-fat milk is actually a helluva lot cheaper than 2%-fat milk? Seriously unfair.

Anyway, we trudge onward, do we not? I weigh in this week at 108.3kg, which is not great - I'm going backwards. I haven't been back to pilates or actively been doing any exercise (apart from a little walking) so I can't complain really. I really need to book in to pilates and get going again!

Just a note, too, re: Magza Szubanski. I'm so proud of her for losing all that weight! She's down to 85kg, and I think she looks really foxy. I wish I looked as good as she did. Oh well. Here is a current picture of myself, by the way - for the record's sake:

That's my gorgeous friend Bryony on the left, and me on the right. I recently went to visit her in Sydney, and this is us standing in front of the Three Sisters in the Blue Mountains of NSW. Gorgeous!